Updates? 4srs?

Yes, I know. I'm horrible at keeping these things updated. Really, I am. No doubt I have left you all wondering just where in the hell have I gone off to? A lot of places, metaphorically speaking - none, literally speaking.

Well, that's not entirely true. I've moved. Not far, and not to Toronto like I had originally wanted to - for the time being that plan is on a back burner. But I do swear and promise that someday, I will live there. I've mostly wanted to go to Toronto to escape the life that's here, and leave the tiny pieces of a broken heart here as well. But sometimes cliches have a disgusting habit of being right. You know how they say that 'time heals all wounds' well ... whoever coined that phrase was by and large right ... for the most part. I've stayed in this little town and put myself back together as best as I could. The past year has been ... revealing.

I've learned a lot about myself and the things that I'm capable of. I've remembered what it's like to have fun. I've learned to turn to other people for help and support when I need it. I've learned that sometimes ... Mom really does know what's best, despite the fact that I may hate to admit it. I've tried kick boxing and fell in love with it. My bank account, unfortunately, did not and ended the relationship. (On a side note, I did get an e-mail from a Bushido Camp that does ladies kick boxing twice a week for 60 bucks a month. I'm intrigued.) I've worn bikini's for the first time ever and have totally enjoyed it. I've let myself drown in books and have been taken on some pretty amazing journeys.

Odd Thomas ... I love you.

I've taken the time this past year to grow in to myself. I'm still learning things about myself, and there are amazing people on this journey with me who get to experience it with me. I've had a few stumbles along the way but I've found some really great friends who have been there for me along the way. I'm learning what it is I want in a relationship and that sometimes to get what you want, you have to say once or twice.

On a totally unrelated note .. I have food stuck in the back of my throat. It won't go away.

Murr.